Surrounded: More Than Cumulus

IMG_0011I’m over at Fidelia’s Sisters today as editor of Cloud of Witnesses, and writer for this month. But there are so many other writers that are much, much, much more inspiring – I would be terribly remiss if I didn’t encourage you to read the other columns.

Those were some dark times.

No happy clouds. No rainbows or singing birds. No warm sunshine or flowers lining the path. I was in my junior year during my undergrad and trying to figure “it” all out. What was I supposed to do with my life? How would I deal with my parents disappointment? Could I really pursue ministry full-time as an actual job? 

I’d chosen the stereotypical path in college. I would go pre-med and double major in something science and English literature (for fun). And then I found myself utterly failing those science classes. Just doing horribly. And loving English. Religion. Philosophy. History. I kept thinking to myself, Who am I??? I had always thrived in math and sciences, and I was supposed to become a pediatrician. The days got darker as I vacillated back and forth between what I thought I should do and what I thought I wanted to do with my life. Something else was drawing me in a different direction.

“You have a right to experiment with your life. You will make mistakes. And they are right too. No, I think there was too rigid a pattern. You came out of an education and are supposed to know your vocation. Your vocation is fixed, and maybe ten years later you find you are not a teacher anymore or you’re not a painter anymore. It may happen. It has happened. I mean Gauguin decided at a certain point he wasn’t a banker anymore; he was a painter. And so he walked away from banking. I think we have a right to change course. But society is the one that keeps demanding that we fit in and not disturb things. They would like you to fit in right away so that things work now.” 
― Anaïs Nin

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One thought on “Surrounded: More Than Cumulus

  • September 25, 2013 at 10:58 am

    Thank you for this writing. Yours is a great life story.
    2013.09.25 Wed twi-lit
    ‘MacArthur $625,000’
    Ensō (円相)
    never saw
    it coming
    :always say
    © 2013 RobertJulianBraxton

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